Acting or Real or both? Confusing!!!

July 3rd, 2007

So I recently got some feedback on some of my videos. That I flirt with the camera and smile and look like I’m enjoying myself during some of my spankings and that this ruins the fantasy for the viewer. Now the truth is that my spankings start out very uncomfortable, then after a certain point I get a rush and am starting to get aroused. Especially when it’s my hard handed man! I enjoy and get off on being watched as well and looking at myself get spanked in the monitor on the camera and/or in the mirror. My feedback I had recently was that I need to sustain my character for the whole scene. Now the truth is I was being me the whole time going from uncomfortable to then aroused. sometimes after I’m being punished  get so aroused that I start grinding my man’s leg. So now should I be pretending to not like it?  I do realize now that it should be one or the other. If it’s domestic discipline I should not enjoy it and keep the same character through the entire scene. So it can’t start out one way and end another? There’s a strict rule that noone wants to break, like she shouldn’t like her spanking? What if it hurts at first and then the rush gets my blood flowing and it turns me on? Act as if I hate it?

I’m going to start some polls. For now though I’m very curious to hearing feedback. Even if my spanking is an Erotic one should I never look into the camera and flirt? During Discipline is it ok to look into the camera and tell the viewer why I am being spanked? Also I’m going to be doing Spank Amber screentests the next couple months and be asking members who should come back to Spank Amber and if they should be a top, bottom, or both.

Here’s some self pics in my sox after yoga!