naughty blubberings of a spanko cammodel
new look
August 22nd, 2010
So after we moved into my new home I’m ready for a new look on my blog too. I’ve been feeling a little down lately not sure why just seems hard for me to be happy sometimes. Then i feel bad for feeling bad because i’m very lucky as i have my health, everything i need, a boyfriend and a job i love. But sometimes I feel like i’m never content or satisfied. What is that all about? And yes I have been in therapy before so i could probably break it down. No matter how well do at myfreecams i see other models doing better and feel like i suck. Sometimes i just want to put the bankie over my head and go back to sleep. Tomorrow the power will be out and I will have to get up early to get my shower in as the construction is electrical tomorrow. Then roof getting redone starting tuesday so it’s going to be a crazy week and most likely not be online on myfreecams til after 5pm when they leave. I do have 2 screentests set for this wednesday and friday evening though! That’s exciting… First we have the adorable Mattie Lynn 20 years old and then we have then we have 21 year old Camarose and i have no idea what there bums look like, It will be a surprise! 
I like the new look. It feels lighter.
For what it’s worth, I think we all go through little valleys in life, those depressive funks that seem to come out of nowhere. Personally, I usually feel that way if I’m not being challenged. Introducing something difficult/new into my life usually helps.
lol thank you Ben, the truth is i’m totalyl being challenged. Re being a webcam model and running own website i realize my marketing sucks. I don’t know how to market myself properly and am constantly being told i chose the wrong avatar etc. Like what i think is a hot pick isnt to others. How do you be yourself and market yourself to mass markets?
I’m not an expert, but generally it seems the people who are the most interactive gain the most attention/market. I think your cam shows and blog are a really good step in that direction.
My suggestion would be to just keep throwing stuff out there and see what people respond to. Maybe post some details here (or on the forum) about your screen tests, maybe mention a hot experience on MFC.
As for avatars, maybe post a handful here and let people vote on them. I think the more interactive you are, the more people will respond to it.
… Or maybe people just like to passively lurk, I’ve been wrong before