Patron, pms and no dinner

December 20th, 2010

Not a good idea. I went on cam last night totally sober and made $10 in an hour so i went back on about 6 pm with a couple shots of patron, a beer, and some wine for diner. Well i was being quite feisty and having a hard time keeping up with the comments, and private messages to say the least. And when my fellow friend and model tipped me and wrote cup o coffee? lol Ii had daddy make me some tea. The funny thing is when i go live on cam and i don’t think or worry about making money and have abuzz on i do really well! Although i’m left feeling like i made a fool of myself which i did last night. My cyberdom took me pvt for one of our nipple torches ass plug ice shows even though he knew he shouldn’t because i was too buzzed, He’s funny sometimes hes too tired or too buzzed or  i am and it doesn’t mesh well. Well i had already gotten into my character so the tears were coming, but i was too drunk and whiny for him and not meshing well so he ws gonna end it. So then i sobbed and let all the pms and pent up tears that didn’t get to come out in the session and i ended the show crawled in bed with daddy and continued to sob feeling unloved and miserable. What a dork  I am! I know those 3 things never mix! i should have stuck to a couple glasses of wine, and had daddy punish me today and let the tears out. Why am i so stupid sometimes? Oh well i hope my friends will forgive me…I don’t think daddy’s gonna let me get out of this one easy though. I had some hash browns with cholula hot sauce and an organic English muffin with soy butter and jam but i still feel embarrassed and dizzy